blahmonkey

blahmonkey @ 2005-05-28T10:32:00

2005-05-28T17:35:08Z

Well last night I had my job shadow. It was a lot of fun! I went to Fox 12, my dad is going to be here soon to pick me up. I think my Uncle John is with him. Dad said he'd take me to 23rd avenue this weekend so I'm excited! woot................................................................

blahmonkey @ 2005-05-22T23:53:00

2005-05-23T06:58:46Z

My stomach won't stop growling. I'm not hungry. Everything is wrong. My eyes are wet, damp, starting to hurt. I can't go to school tomorrow. I just really cannot do it. I need a mental health day. because everything is wrong. so wrong.

She should have died when she was born

2005-05-23T02:02:51Z

I feel like I swallowed a weight and its just about to reach my stomach. And it got stuck. And there's a weight inside me, pulling, pushing, hurting.
I feel so entangled in so many loops and viens that there is no solution to my problems
What do I do? What would you do?
The world says no, and there's nothing, nothing I can do. But just agree.
I sound so dramatic. Is it? People are telling me yes and people are telling me no.

Stealth Mission

2005-05-22T22:11:15Z

Yesterday was funny. Cari and I were trying to find a back way out of the restaurant next to the meow meow so that lisa wouldn't see us. We found a gate in the back, but it led to an alley that was closed by a fence. Then this girl that worked there was like "are you trying to sneak out?" and we were like "yes". So she was trying to remember the code to unlock the fence, but she couldn't. So she was like "are they already in the restaurant?" Even though we never told her why we wanted to leave. So we said no. And she took us through the kitchen and the bar that we aren't supposed to be in as minors. But she just kept saying "stealth mission, they need to get out of here as soon as possible." Good times. We ended up on the opposite side of a dumpster as Jake and Lisa...so we ran. Good times.

Survey

2005-05-17T03:08:44Z

*ABOUT*
Name:	Danielle Rose
Birthday:	June 25, 1989
Birthplace:	Daly City, California
Current Location:	Beaverton, Oregon
Eye Color:	Green
Hair Color:	Brown
Height:	5'5
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right
Your Heritage:	Uhm...German, Irish, Scottish, British
The Shoes You Wore Today:	blue and yellow converse
Your Weakness:	jealousy
Your Fears:	death, loneliness
Your Perfect Pizza:	3 cheese, pepperoni, with black and green olives
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	3.8 accumulative GPA
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	"uh huh"
Thoughts First Waking Up:	What time is it?
Your Best Physical Feature:	Eyes?
Your Bedtime:	11
Your Most Missed Memory:	My mom actually being happy
Pepsi or Coke:	coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:	macdonalds
Single or Group Dates:	single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	neither
Chocolate or Vanilla:	chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	cappuccino
Do you Smoke:	no
Do you Swear:	yes
Do you Sing:	sometimes
Do you Shower Daily:	na
Have you Been in Love:	no
Do you want to go to College:	yes
Do you want to get Married:	someday maybe
Do you belive in yourself:	yes
Do you get Motion Sickness:	not often
Do you think you are Attractive:	na
Are you a Health Freak:	not really
Do you get along with your Parents:	mostly
Do you like Thunderstorms:	neutral
Do you play an Instrument:	used to
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	no
In the past month have you Smoked:	no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	no
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	yes
In the past month have you been on Stage:	yes
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no
Ever been Drunk:	no
Ever been called a Tease:	yes
Ever been Beaten up:	no
Ever Shoplifted:	yes
How do you want to Die:	painlessly
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	director
What country would you most like to Visit:	England
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	Green
Favourite Hair Color:	Dark
Short or Long Hair:	Medium
Height:	Tall
Weight:	Not too fat
Best Clothing Style:	doesn't matter
Number of Drugs I have taken:	none hopefully
Number of CDs I own:	doesn't matter
Number of Piercings:	who cares
Number of Tattoos:	neutral
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	a few maybe a little bit
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

It's All Your Fault

2005-05-11T01:32:02Z

Today was pretty good. In drama she actually talked to the class the whole time WEIRD. Oh yeah, and in key club I found out I DO have enough hours to letter. (yay) Then in Spanish we had a quiz which I think I did well on, except I forgot what "hiking" was... damn. During lunch I turned in my Link Crew Application. Hopefully I make it. Anyway, then I actually had the strawberry water instead of the peach water, and it was really good. In Health I almost freaked out at Olivier cause I thought he lost one of my papers, but I found out that I actually still had it. During English Hansen was in a super bad mood, but I'm understanding the book better. I have my symbol and characterization worksheets almost full! In chemistry I found out I have a B!! I NEED to get that up. Cause English is going to be my B this tri, as well... it's hard. After school Grandma drove Cari and I to the library where we looked through monologue books for about an hour. Then my mom picked me up. When I got home I ate some quesadillas that were to go from Chili's. Yum. I think I'm going to go take a shower soon...and well then you know do homework and check if Chappelle show really is on tonight!

Happy Mother's Day

2005-05-09T00:11:29Z

Today was pretty cool. Lisa left around 1 then I helped mom with some boxes, and I read a bit. Then I went to the gym for awhile. Now I'm home. I took two showers today. I really like the new body wash my mom got me. :) Last night was a lot of fun. My mom was gone like usual, but Lisa came over and we watched teenage girl movies, ordered pizza and talked on the phone to Jacob and to eachother til like 4 am. Then I got up at 10 and I'm not even tired... We also watched The Sweetest Thing at around 1 am, well...I did...Lisa was doing her homework.

I AM THE EGG MAN

2005-05-07T21:45:34Z

well my mom won't let me leave the house, like usual. I'll maybe go somewhere later while she's at her meeting. Who really knows. She's got a gun. She got a gun. She got a gun she called the lucky one. She left a note by the phone, don't leave a message cause this ain't no home. My computer is kinda being weird...
Blah

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARI

2005-04-27T03:25:29Z

Well today was pretty cool. I got to school really early, so early that I had time to do my chemistry homework. SWEET! And then in drama I had dress rehearsal, though, I didn't dress my part... I will on Thursday though. In Spanish I didn't have to go because I went to the Link Crew informational meeting, during which the fire alarm went off so I was standing in front of the school in the parking lot with Cari and Lisa for almost an hour. So when we went back, we stayed at the meeting for about 5 more minutes, and then went to spanish. Ben was playing guitar and singing for us, he wrote the song and he was really good! (He'll be in the talent show) During lunch Molly became obsessed with me saying "lame ass". And then I sat down on some wet pavement and well then my arse was wet, so we all had to look at eachothers behinds "casually" (Molly, Lisa, and I). During Health we played Jepeordy to get ready for the test tomorrow. I was getting really anxious and I wanted to win, because don't I always?, and so I kept raising my hand and freaking out a little. Then in English we started state testing which SUCKS, none of the given topics are any good this year. In Chemistry we took a test, which was really easy. The extra credit on the other hand was not. After school I hung out with Molly and Joel til they had to get on their bus. He now thinks Molly and I are crazy because she wants to join a nudest colony and told him I wanted to join too. I was too lazy to walk to Grandma's house after school, so I stayed there. I called Cari and talked to her for like 40 minutes. Then I layed down on the pavement and just waited for mom. We went to Safeway and got chinese food. I saw a lot of people there.

AND THATS ALL I HAVE TO SAY

Wendys V Chinese...

2005-04-26T03:55:03Z

Today was pretty interesting. Tomorrow I have dress rehearsal in drama for the Mayfete show that I'm in. I have to bring a briefcase. I also get to miss Spanish to go to a link crew meeting. WOO. Today at the golf tournament, I did HORRIBLE!!!!!!!!!!! The worst I've ever done by far. Then when I got home. I went online. And that was my day.

Sitting On A Cornflake Waiting For The Van To Come

2005-04-12T22:09:50Z

I didn't go to school today. My nose is all congested, and my throat hurts like a mother. So when I got up I went downstairs, and my mom left me a note saying

"Danielle, I hope you feel better. Here are some chores I want done before I get home.

1) Finish packing your room.
2) Scrub your bathroom, including tub, floor, counter, toilet and don't forget the mirror.

Love you honey!

P.S. Do the dishes"

Real nice mom, that's really going to help me get better. My dad called me earlier, and I read the note while I was on the phone with him, he got all silent and was like "are you joking?" haha, what a silly guy. of course I'm not joking. I went to golf practice for the first time yesterday, it was fun. I slept from 10pm-12pm (today) last night... And I still feel disgusting. While I was packing my closet I found this black and red puma jacket that I haven't worn for a few months and I forgot about. This weekend while I'm with my dad I want to get some new cd's there are a few I've been wanting. Like... Hot Hot Heat, Soundtrack to Garden State, Tom Petty And The Heartbreakers Greatest Hits, as well as maybe a Beatles cd?
Anyways, I think I'm going to go watch tv now, buh bye.

And All That Jazz

2005-04-07T03:49:55Z

So this week has been strange. I kinda want/don't want it to be over though. I can't choose between those extemes. I guess I'm joining the golf team... hopefully I don't miss the ball every time! hahah... anyhow... so my mom wants to give Jesse the bigger room in the new house. Which is completely retarded! I called the outdoor school lady cause I really want to get the same week as Cari, Jeff, Stephen, and Fro which is (4/25-4/30) but she didn't answer. So I left her a message asking her to get back to me. Hopefully she does tomorrow! Well I better go do my homework. ADIOS

Someone's gonna tell you lies, cut you down a size

2005-03-27T23:57:52Z

I got back from the beach a little bit ago.
I really want spring break to be over so I don't have to be around mom and Jesse so much anymore.
I have to move soon...I wonder what I'm going to do after school once I do.
I could go hang out with grandma or something.
Hopefully my classes are better this tri.
I need to memorize half my, what? like, 12 lines for drama?
That shouldn't be too hard.
Next weekend I guess I'm going back to the beach with dad.
Hopefully it doesn't rain like this again.
I wish I could spend more time with my dad.
It's freezing in this house.
Everything is going wrong lately.
Maybe I should go to a different school next year?
Why is my mom always in such a bad mood?
80's music is pretty cool.
Why does everyone always want to keep everything a secret?

DON'T DO ME LIKE THAT

Road Trip To Seattle!

2005-03-25T07:52:40Z

Hey Guys! I just got back today from Seattle. Dad and I planned on going up to Skamania lodge in southern Washington, but when we got there Dad didn't like it...so we decided to drive up to Seattle for the night and come home today. So we stayed at The W, went out to eat, watched Silence Of The Lambs, and then today we shopped at Pike's Market! It was really FUN! I took some pictures....

^Fish^

^My dad drinking from a weird water fountain^

^Big Sign At The Entrance^

^People Playing Instruments^

^Pretty Boat^

^Painting On The Side Of A Building^

^Construction^

^Huge Boat^

^The City^

^The Other Side^

Well last weekend Cari was over, we were experimenting with cooking a lot and on Saturday night we made dinner for mom. Then on Monday night I spent the night at Molly's house. We watched a TON of movies. And tomorrow I'm going to the beach with my mom, my brother, and my grandma til Sunday! WOO

Smile Like You Mean It

2005-03-13T20:09:45Z

Right now I'm waiting for my dad to get ready to go to the gym and then we're gonna leave! It's soo nice outside today! Even though it's only like 60 degrees it seems like 70 at least! Well anyhow I better go because dad's ready! BYE

I'm sorry, so sorry

2005-03-12T05:53:37Z

Right about now I'm getting really bored. My dads out with people for his birthday. Tomorrow I'm going to outdoor school councelor training. It should be fun. I am actually too lazy to sit up and type on the keyboard so I'm using the on screen keyboard! WOOH

MATT IS A DICK FACE

Sofie Tucker will shit I know, to see her name get filled below....ROXIE HART

2005-03-11T02:18:38Z

Right about now I am listing anything I could possibly need to bring with me to dad's house for school or something because I'm not coming back home until Sunday as my mom is at the beach for an AA thing. Dad should be picking me up soon, but he might be late as he was coming from Gresham and it's rush hour. I have a new look going on, the other one started to get old. For those of you who don't know my icon is from Garden State, which is a good movie. Tomorrow is my dad's birthday and he is going to be 49. My mom picked out the gift I'm giving him this year, which is good for me...as I never know what to get him. He'll be in a good mood, as he gets to go golfing while I'm at school tomorrow. Haha that's a long time. I keep thinking I've forgotten something...I probably have. Hmm oh well. I wonder if he's still driving the mini cooper...hopefully not, or maybe hopefully yes? It was small and a bit uncomfortable, but it was cool. I wouldn't be able to drive if he still had that one though... hmm.... So I got my new schedule, I might switch my health and chemistry classes but I'm not sure at this point. At the moment I have:

(1) Drama 2B                             McCall
(2) Spanish 2B                            Bushnell
Lunch
(3) Health 2                                Olivier
(4) Advanced Sophmore English Hansen
(5) Accelerated Chemistry           Roberts

I'll only have 1 guy teacher, that's kinda weird. At least I won't have Neville anymore! This will be the first tri since tri 1 last year that I haven't had him! ANYWAYS I better go make sure I have everything so I don't regret it later!

Here's to the night

2005-03-08T05:25:04Z

Pics from this weekend.

I'm not as ugly sad as you, Or am I oragami?

2005-03-08T05:01:48Z

So today was a good day. I haven't written in here in awhile. I've been at dad's the last 2 weekends and I'm going to his house this coming weekend as it's his birthday on Friday! I need to get him a present! Hmm...there's never anything to get him. Gosh. One of my mom's friends died last night. It's sad, I used to play with her son. Only 8 days left of the trimester! Actually, technically, only 7.5!! As next Thursday is a half day =). And then 10 days spring break!! WOOT! I'll finally be done with history and math for the year! This is what I did today...

Went to School- Lisa wasn't there so I sat in front of my locker and did the math homework I missed on Friday. Then I talked to Molly, Emma and people.
Drama- Talked with Cari, then watched her block her mayfete scene.
Spanish- Brian and I did our speech. We got 20/20. Then Mrs. Bushnell talked a TON, and gave us our speech for our final I think. And we got work time.
Algebra 2- Talked to Sam, Ty and Nick. Justin came later and wouldn't stop talking to me so I think Mr. Allnutt took some of our points off.
Lunch- I hung out with Molly and her crew.
English- I took the vocab quiz I missed on Friday. Then basically sat and talked to people the whole period.
History- Finished watching a movie. And did a group activity.
Came home- Layed on the couch until 6:30 watching vH1. Mom made BLT's for dinner, then I took a shower and came online.

Not Such A Great Day

2005-02-23T00:06:00Z

Today was one of the worst days I've had in awhile. First of all before school Lisa wasn't there so I had nothing to do, I sat in the auditorium doing my homework until Key Club started. I got to see all the people who don't even go to meetings win leadership spots. WOO HOO. Three of the people they called weren't even there. Because they're also president of a million other stupid fucking clubs. Then in Drama she handed out scripts, I didn't get mine. We listened to people read, Cari's script was cool but it was flipping long. I didn't make the one act audition thing I tried out for on Friday. Even though I thought I did well....Cari got two spots though! =) Good job! Spanish seemed to drag on forever, and she yelled at me and said I was really rude for doing my math homework. In Math I did good on the quiz I guess. 39/42. During lunch I had absolutely nothing to do and no one to talk to. So I sat by myself outside. As I have no friends. In English we did stuff to do with an essay we're starting. In history we did alot of boring worksheets. And now I'm home alone, with no one to talk to until my mom get's home and I hope to God she isn't in a bad mood.

You were the mother of three girls so sweet

2005-02-19T23:23:14Z

3 Day Weekend!

Right so I don't have much to say. Last night I went to a meeting with my mom, we went out to dinner afterwards. Mmm clam chowder =).
I haven't done much today, I slept in until 12:30. My aunt called and wanted to go to the gym, I called her back but she didn't answer. I watched the food network with my mom, and looked up places that do yoga. Then I took a shower, ate some strawberries with whip cream and came online. Cari might come over tonight, I'm going to ask my mom to rent a few movies before she leaves. She's going to get coffee with her best friend Anna and going to a meeting afterwards. Hoping to get Garden State and maybe some other stuff. Yeah I guess that's it.

Great Looking Bunch

2005-02-15T02:41:26Z

Today was a pretty good day. Here's how it went down.

So my mom woke me up at 6:30 but I didn't go to bed til 11:30 so I was tired and didn't get up til 6:50. I went downstairs and was making breakfast when mom took Pedro out and she said there was a surprise on the front porch for me. I went out to get it and it was really cute red stuffed animal with a choclate rose and a box of chocolate kisses! The card said "To: Danielle From: Guess" but I knew it was Matt.
At school Lisa gave me a Dora The Explorer Valentine's card with a box of candy hearts.
During Drama Cari and I sat the whole time because we didn't feel like practicing our scene.
In Spanish we made Valentine Cards for people in the class. Mine was GORGEOUS!
In Math we did the usual thing.
In English no one did the homework besides maybe 6 people so she gave us all period to work on that, she gave us a study guide for Julius Ceasar and handed a test back that everyone did bad on so she said we can look up the answers in the book to retake it.
In Neville it was a work day for our speeches tomorrow and I found another book that had alot about my case.
After school I talked to my dad on the phone for a long time. Then I did most of my homework, cleaned the kitchen, and got the mail. Now I'm waiting for my damn mother to get home.

blahmonkey @ 2005-02-11T23:10:00

2005-02-12T07:10:43Z

Chances are you don't mean to play hard to get; you just are.

Sorry I saw you and I heard birds sing
Sorry I touched you and I heard bells ring
Sorry I jacked off outside of your window
While you were sleeping, I thought you'd never know
Sorry I showed up at your wedding
Sorry I tried so hard to get in
Sorry I screwed up your picture
Sorry I had sex with your sister

UGH

2005-02-12T00:50:59Z

Why do parents always think it's so special when they take the family out, when the kids end up fighting then the parents get pissed? EVERY TIME. This question has no good answer.

*I walk in the door after school and notice mom and Jesse are home "how strange" I said to myself*
Mom: "Hey honey! Come here!" In a surprisingly upbeat tone after this mornings incident where I missed the bus. Even though she woke me up 45 minutes late.
*I went over to where she was sitting, wondering what was going on*
Mom: "I want to leave right now"
Me: "Where are we going?"
Mom: "No, you two are staying here. I'm going to help grandma pick out a new car." At the thought of spending my Friday night babysitting my hellion little brother I made a face showing her my emotion.
Me: "For how long?"
Mom: "I'll be gone for a few hours. Then when I get back we'll go out to dinner and to see a movie." Right when she said that I remembered all the other times she's attempted the movie night with the family. Jesse and I end up fighting because he never stops complaining, and then mom thinks that we don't respect her because we're fighting and she is pissed the rest of the weekend. I said nothing, just gave her my look of unsatisfaction.

This is the scenario I found myself in when walking into the house after school and this nice Friday afternoon. And I wonder to myself, Why? Why does she think I'll actually be happy about this? When EVERY other time Jesse annoys me, I tell him to shut up, we start fighting and then mom threatens to take us home. Why?

But my lips hurt real bad

2005-02-09T00:57:53Z

How are all of you?